Happy first day of the week to you!
After two days of struggle and strain, I have finally finished the "perfect" copy of the book that will be sent to the printers. After writing this blog, I am going to spend the day re-reading the copy that I think is so perfect, to see if it really is, or if it needs just a little more re-working. It seems to never end.
Saturday and Sunday I had set to finish typing this final copy, but every which way I was pulled away from the book. I developed such a nervous condition that I had to stop typing after every two pages and take a rest and some form of distraction. Chapter 23 was 11 pages long and rife with little errors. I just could not get my mind to concentrate and I began to get the uncomfortable feeling that my finishing this book was not on someone else's agenda. An agenda that hoped that I would crash and burn. I started having serious doubts about what I was doing and if the book was indeed worthy of publication; was I letting my readers down?
And then, I got a mysterious message from someone that I do not know, on Facebook. She purports to know me well and she wanted everyone to know that I was not miss Suzie perfect, indeed that I was a terrible person and what I write was coming from an insincere heart. She accused me of letting my daughter, forcing her actually, to live on the streets. It is obvious to me that she did not understand the situation for what it really was, and of course, she is right in a way: I am not perfect by any means.
In fact, I must make sure that you understand that I have done many wrong things in my life and did not always operate under the finest principles at the time. The worst things I have done were done when I was very mentally disturbed and not thinking in my right mind, however, I still did them and I must always remember my mistakes so that I don't repeat them. I have hurt other human beings and broken the law even a couple of times, and I am heartily ashamed of my actions and have repented their commitment.
The great thing is that God understands our actions and forgives our mistakes when we do teshuva (turn around from our evil ways and make restitution), and I know in my heart that God loves me and has asked me to write what I am writing, not because I am some perfect example of what a person should be, but because I have actually experienced doing very wrong things and yet have come to have a passionate love of God and am willing to put ideas out there that I believe come from the love He has for all of His children and His desire to let His children know that they are truly loved, no matter what their past has held; or holds.
So, I am a sinner of the first magnitude, and I can relate and understand where everyone else comes from and have a strong testimony that God loves us exactly as we are; just as we are right now.
I will spend the rest of today getting all of my ducks in a row and then on Tuesday, I call the publisher to prepare to send him, or her, the book. My stomach is in knots, but I am so grateful to have made it through the final typing and correcting process. Now, on to the next step.
Tomorrow we will go over the next step with the publisher. I hope you are having great success with your own book. Thanks for listening and caring enough to return every day, or so. You are really a great help to me.
After two days of struggle and strain, I have finally finished the "perfect" copy of the book that will be sent to the printers. After writing this blog, I am going to spend the day re-reading the copy that I think is so perfect, to see if it really is, or if it needs just a little more re-working. It seems to never end.
Saturday and Sunday I had set to finish typing this final copy, but every which way I was pulled away from the book. I developed such a nervous condition that I had to stop typing after every two pages and take a rest and some form of distraction. Chapter 23 was 11 pages long and rife with little errors. I just could not get my mind to concentrate and I began to get the uncomfortable feeling that my finishing this book was not on someone else's agenda. An agenda that hoped that I would crash and burn. I started having serious doubts about what I was doing and if the book was indeed worthy of publication; was I letting my readers down?
And then, I got a mysterious message from someone that I do not know, on Facebook. She purports to know me well and she wanted everyone to know that I was not miss Suzie perfect, indeed that I was a terrible person and what I write was coming from an insincere heart. She accused me of letting my daughter, forcing her actually, to live on the streets. It is obvious to me that she did not understand the situation for what it really was, and of course, she is right in a way: I am not perfect by any means.
In fact, I must make sure that you understand that I have done many wrong things in my life and did not always operate under the finest principles at the time. The worst things I have done were done when I was very mentally disturbed and not thinking in my right mind, however, I still did them and I must always remember my mistakes so that I don't repeat them. I have hurt other human beings and broken the law even a couple of times, and I am heartily ashamed of my actions and have repented their commitment.
The great thing is that God understands our actions and forgives our mistakes when we do teshuva (turn around from our evil ways and make restitution), and I know in my heart that God loves me and has asked me to write what I am writing, not because I am some perfect example of what a person should be, but because I have actually experienced doing very wrong things and yet have come to have a passionate love of God and am willing to put ideas out there that I believe come from the love He has for all of His children and His desire to let His children know that they are truly loved, no matter what their past has held; or holds.
So, I am a sinner of the first magnitude, and I can relate and understand where everyone else comes from and have a strong testimony that God loves us exactly as we are; just as we are right now.
I will spend the rest of today getting all of my ducks in a row and then on Tuesday, I call the publisher to prepare to send him, or her, the book. My stomach is in knots, but I am so grateful to have made it through the final typing and correcting process. Now, on to the next step.
Tomorrow we will go over the next step with the publisher. I hope you are having great success with your own book. Thanks for listening and caring enough to return every day, or so. You are really a great help to me.
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