I am in extreme bi-polar flux. For the last two weeks I have been living on the edge of one mood swing or the other. I am sorry that I have had difficulty setting my thoughts in order enough to write cogently, but I give up appearing all put together and tell you how it really is.
I am so filled with joy and excitement. In two weeks or less, my book will finish printing and it will be published and out in the market place. I should be purely rejoicing. It has taken me five years to complete this book and now it is practically a fate accompli, but instead of dancing on the ceiling and doing back flips, I find myself crying and finding it hard to accomplish anything but day to day living. I am now facing the day when I can no longer look at the book as something that will happen in the future, but something that will be read and judged, and succeed or fail, in a very short time. Frankly, I feel fear and feel like putting the brakes on with both feet so that I never have to face the outcome of the book's success, or failure.
However, that I will not do. I am instead psyching myself up on the note that at least I have accomplished my first goal, and that is to have a book published and marketed to the world and hopefully touch lives with the story and give people some alternative ideas on which to ponder. I have begun to receive feed-back from friends and strangers who have read parts of the book. My friends and family, of course, think it is good and seem to be fans, but I have been getting some ideas from total strangers that take exception with some of my ideas. This I have expected and anticipated. I know that some of my ideas are different from current religious thought and that is the very reason that I have written the book. My granddaughters were affronted by someone's comments on the title of the book, but I tell them to relax, that the very nature of the book is that it will be controversial and we will have to develop tough skins when we are accepting comments. I want to start a discussion with minds and hearts and possibly help break down some walls that all of us have in our minds regarding the meaning and purpose of life. I want my readers to leave the book with a new view of what being an alien entails; with some new thoughts about life on other planets and how their lives may compare with our own; and how the Holy One deals with all of His children across the Cosmos.
I have always been shy and withdrawing, but now I must screw up my courage and take a stand. I have begun to pace the floor again; will I have the strength to remain calm and loving even if someone despises the tenets of the book? Can I explain my thoughts and ideas in a loving and gracious manner? The way I feel is that if you love the book, I thank you and rejoice, and if you hate the book, that I will also thank you for giving her a chance and at least listening to my thoughts. Feel free to get back to me with your comments or complaints, and whether you love her or hate her, I would love to see you give the book a review either way that you feel. I would love to hear your ideas on how "wrong" or "right" the ideas in the book are, and where I am on the "crazy as a loon" scale.
Thank you so much for your continuing support of this blog. You help to give me the strength and support that I need to stand up and face the future and whatever it entails. Thank you for your patience. I will have a new website that will discuss the book itself as soon as she comes off of the printer. Its URL is www.outskirtspress.com/thegodgames
The website will have an audio excerpt of my "reading" of a portion of one of the chapters. I hope you will enjoy the excerpt and maybe become curious about the remainder of the book.
I am so filled with joy and excitement. In two weeks or less, my book will finish printing and it will be published and out in the market place. I should be purely rejoicing. It has taken me five years to complete this book and now it is practically a fate accompli, but instead of dancing on the ceiling and doing back flips, I find myself crying and finding it hard to accomplish anything but day to day living. I am now facing the day when I can no longer look at the book as something that will happen in the future, but something that will be read and judged, and succeed or fail, in a very short time. Frankly, I feel fear and feel like putting the brakes on with both feet so that I never have to face the outcome of the book's success, or failure.
However, that I will not do. I am instead psyching myself up on the note that at least I have accomplished my first goal, and that is to have a book published and marketed to the world and hopefully touch lives with the story and give people some alternative ideas on which to ponder. I have begun to receive feed-back from friends and strangers who have read parts of the book. My friends and family, of course, think it is good and seem to be fans, but I have been getting some ideas from total strangers that take exception with some of my ideas. This I have expected and anticipated. I know that some of my ideas are different from current religious thought and that is the very reason that I have written the book. My granddaughters were affronted by someone's comments on the title of the book, but I tell them to relax, that the very nature of the book is that it will be controversial and we will have to develop tough skins when we are accepting comments. I want to start a discussion with minds and hearts and possibly help break down some walls that all of us have in our minds regarding the meaning and purpose of life. I want my readers to leave the book with a new view of what being an alien entails; with some new thoughts about life on other planets and how their lives may compare with our own; and how the Holy One deals with all of His children across the Cosmos.
I have always been shy and withdrawing, but now I must screw up my courage and take a stand. I have begun to pace the floor again; will I have the strength to remain calm and loving even if someone despises the tenets of the book? Can I explain my thoughts and ideas in a loving and gracious manner? The way I feel is that if you love the book, I thank you and rejoice, and if you hate the book, that I will also thank you for giving her a chance and at least listening to my thoughts. Feel free to get back to me with your comments or complaints, and whether you love her or hate her, I would love to see you give the book a review either way that you feel. I would love to hear your ideas on how "wrong" or "right" the ideas in the book are, and where I am on the "crazy as a loon" scale.
Thank you so much for your continuing support of this blog. You help to give me the strength and support that I need to stand up and face the future and whatever it entails. Thank you for your patience. I will have a new website that will discuss the book itself as soon as she comes off of the printer. Its URL is www.outskirtspress.com/thegodgames
The website will have an audio excerpt of my "reading" of a portion of one of the chapters. I hope you will enjoy the excerpt and maybe become curious about the remainder of the book.
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