CHOOSING YOUR PARENTS BEFORE BIRTH

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter 8...

As we walked out into the beautiful spring day, the breeze brought a heady aroma of roses, orange blossoms, and honeysuckle vines. We walked over to an outdoor restaurant and were seated at a lovely white table with an umbrella spread over us. We ordered ice tea and ate cucumber and watercress sandwiches and a bowl of delicious figs.

Maybe you wonder what I look like. I keep forgetting about looks and clothes and such things. Well, I have a body form, but I am, or would look to you like, a bright light clothed in a toga-like robe of rose and gold color. It is true that I am able to eat and run about, and "do things," but in matters like having to go to the bathroom, food and drink are just vaporized by my body as soon as they enter it, so I have no need to go to the restroom. I eat and drink for the fun and taste of it; because I enjoy that. Even though I am made of bright light, I have features that look like yours. You can see my narrow face and bright eyes; my arms and legs and hands and feet. I am of average looks, but I like to dress well.

After we had finished lunch, Glenna said that it would be a good idea to start going to the next building. She said that I could relax, indeed that my whole next journey would be in a state of relaxation.

The Genealogy Building was a large round building with a magnificent pearl adorning the roof. We enterd into a large semi-circular hall. Around the sides of the hall, flanked by floor to ceiling windows, were several large fireplaces. Facing the fireplaces were couches of such depth and comfort, that once ensconced in one, you would be loath to leave it. In the middle of the room was a hologram of a large oak tree with magnificent branches. Glenna had me stand in front of the tree and notice that the tree had blank scrolls on each of its branches. Then she showed me a scroll on the trunk of the tree, where the trunk met the boughs, and on this scroll was the name, ANN.

"That's my name on the tree, Glenna. What does this tree represent, and why is my name on it?"

"Well, honey, this is your tree of life. Right now only your name appears on the tree, but the choices that you make here today will fill out your genealogical tree, and your ancestors names will also be on the scrolls of this tree. I think that's pretty important for your life on Earth; to know who you are."

"That would be a great blessing to me. Could we start the next course soon?"

"We can start it in about as long as it takes us to walk through the next set of doors, dear."

Then Glenna walked me to the back of the room where I saw many doors, and finally came to a door with the name Ann on it. We entered the room that engulfed us with a feeling of comfort and joy. Suspended from the ceiling by some heavy cords was a small bed covered entirely by a black velvet blanket. The walls were painted a light golden color, but, besides the bed, there was only a small table, with a single white candle on it, in the room.

"Dear," said Glenna, "this is a creation room. You and you alone will lie on this bed and submit yourself to the Universal Intelligence. The Universal Intelligence knows all things and how they will be worked out. You will put yourself into a mind position where all things can be made known to you; but from which position, you alone will be able to make the final choices for this new life game you are creating.

"You will lie on this bed and clear your mind entirely. Then you will be able to hear a set of instructions. Do exactly as they ask of you and you will find your parents out of all the people on Earth. I will sit on a seat outside the door and if you are unclear about anything, I will be here to answer your questions. One clue, you will be looking for your father first because he causes a marriage, or relationship, to develop and he is the head of your family. Are you ready?"

"Yes, I am ready, I feel really good about this experience."

With all of that said, I climbed onto the bed and laid back and relaxed my mind and body. I felt incredibly positive. Then the bed gently conformed itself to my body and I felt as if I were in the arms of a lover.

The bed began to sway gently and the room gradually shifted to dark except for the light of the one candle. I could hear the soft strains of a Mozart concerto. I heard a soft and gentle voice say, "Ann, begin to relax your body from toe to head." 

"Now, Ann," the voice soothingly said, "you must clear your mind of all topics except this one: I must find my father."

Tomorrow I find my father and then my mother. To be continued...

CHOOSING OUR SEXUAL ATTRACTIONS (cont.)

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter 7 (cont.)

Suddenly, on a white sand beach were two young men locked in a passionate embrace. I felt myself becoming very aroused.

Then, two men appeared, one dressed in a suit, and one in a slinky sequined dress and high boots; the last man was pleasuring the first; but I felt very little.

A young man and woman appeared next, locked in the throes of coitus, and I felt my body writhing as I broke into a full joyful orgasm.

The scenes were coming so fast that I could barely catch my breath before seeing a beautiful woman posing for pictures for Playboy magazine. This also caused me excitement.

Then there was a picture of two women lying in a deeply cushioned bed; they were naked and deep kissing. No reaction from myself, except at their beauty.

And fnally, two women-half dressed in hunting gear-lying before a fire in front of their tent, making love before a roaring fire. This was a beautiful scene, but I felt nothing.

Suddenly, the scene returned to the lovely Puerto Rican beach, and the chair came to a full stop.

I felt energized, and it seemed like everything had happened in five miuntes. Wow, what a lot to see in so short a span.

I heard a knock on the door, and Shannon opened up the door and proceeded to help me out of the chair and helmet.

"How long did that take Shannon, it seemed like such a short while?"

"Well, Ann, it took quite a long time, relatively speaking. How do you feel?"

"I feel great! How did it all turn out?"

"We will know shortly, the printout should soon be out."

Shannon arose and walked back over to the dome. She came back holding a short piece of paper.

"Well, Ann, are you ready to hear whom you will be attracted to in your new life game?"

"Sure, Shannon, I'm very ready, what does the paper say? However, I must admit that I'm pretty sure of the results. Many things became very clear to me inside of the dome."

"Well, you know that you are 180 degrees woman and 40 degrees man in your new life game, making you a 220 degree composite, so I am sure you will not be surprised that you were chiefly and dramatically aroused by a man making love to a woman. You were also aroused somewhat by the sight of two men together, and also by a picture of a woman posing for Playboy. We see this because you have some male tendencies, and in at least one past life you were a male attracted to other males.

"So these facts add up to the balance that you are on the 220th degree of sexual and romantic attraction. Do you feel these facts to be true for you?"

"Yes, definitely I do. I could feel all the attractions you mentoned, and I feel that I must be very well balanced to come up with 220 degrees in my male/female makeup, and in my attractions makeup also. I am very content. Thank you for your help Shannon.

With this, Shannon led me ot to where Glenna was waiting for me, and I caught Glenna in a great big grin. "Was that so bad?" she asked.

"No Glenna, that was kind of fun, and I sure did learn a lot!

"Now where do we go next?"

"Well," said Glenna, "we are going to leave here and go for something to eat; a little rest and relaxation. Then we are heading to the Genealogy Building where you will have the chance to choose your mther and father, and their families. Does that sound good to you?"

"Yes, by all means!"

And we walked out of the House of Sexuality Building into an afternoon of pure delight.


Tomorrow we will ask ourselves the question, did I choose the parents and family I was born into?...

CHOOSING OUR SEXUAL ATTRACTIONS

THE GOD GAMES : Heaven & Hell...Chapter 7

The room we entered was lit with a soft, radiant light. In the center of the room was a large crystal dome with a door at one side. Light, hitting the dome, fractured into rainbow-colored rays.

On the walls were real-time pictures of several couples. A farm woman was putting hot apple pies out on the window sill to cool, while her husband and son were preparing to go hunting for rabbits. The man stood strong in the sunlight holding a breech-open shotgun over his shoulder. The boy and an old mongrel were tugging at his pants, hardly able to contain themselves with excitement.

On a wall to their right, two young men were tending a summer garden; bending down to pull weeds while a cocker pup yapped and nipped at the cuffs of their trousers.

On the next wall a young mother, sheltered by the arms of her husband, brought a new baby home to be inspected by his siblings.

The next wall showed two older women, astride magnificent horses, riding across an open meadow at the close of day.

I took a deep breath and relaxed into a soft, cushy love-chair, and Shannon took the seat opposite. Suddenly, all of my worries faded away and I felt comfortable enough to start asking questions again.

"Shannon, what will I learn in this room? What does 'attraction' mean?"

"Well Ann, let me start by saying that you have lived over two hundred life games, and in each game you have chosen to be a man or a woman; that much is clear to you by now. In every life game you were attracted to another person romantically and/or sexually. Certain scenarios caused you to react in a certain way.

"In some lifetimes you had children, and in other lifetimes you took care of children, or in some way protected them. In some lifetimes you chose harder positions of attraction because you were after the experiences you could get in no other way.

"Now, you must understand that there is no 'right' or 'wrong' way to love. ONE sends love in every type of package, in every mode, in every style, to all of his creations.

"Relax now, for today you will learn nothing other than who you are; who you have been; or who you will become, at some point in your growth toward spiritual advancement. Above all, always remember that you have the final choice, in all the choices you are going to be makiing, while creating this new life game for yourself."

"All right, Shannon, could you explain to me what I am going to be doing now?"

"You are going to be entering the crystal dome, sitting in a chair, and donning a helmet. The chair will turn around, degree by degree, inside the circle, while on screen around the inside of the dome will be shown scenes of people making love. The helmet will pick up your physical reactions to the lovemaking, and write them into a computer program. There is nothing for you to do but watch the screen and be who you are.

"When you enter the dome and sit down, you will insert this silver disk into a slot by the door, which I will show to you. The disk tells the computer the results of the testing you just completed, so that for the purpose of this test, you will be in the mind-set, and emotion-set, of your new life game. When you have gone around the entire circle, the chair will stop moving and the test will be done. Then you will know what your love interests and physical attractions will be on Earth. Earth is a very primitive planet, and for the most part, people keep the information they learn about themselves here, the deepest secret of their lives."

"Okay, Shannon, I'm ready to start."

With that said, Shannon opened the door of the dome and I stepped inside. She showed me the slot by the door and we put the silver disk into the slot. Then I sat down in a very comfortable cushioned chair and Shannon helped me on with the translucent helmet. All around me, on a stationary screen, were scenes of a beautiful coastline in Puerto Rico. How soothing I thought, and immediately laid back and relaxed.

Shannon patted my hand and left the dome, closing the door behind her.

Suddenly the scene changed and I saw a young man caressing a woman's breasts with one hand while reaching between her legs with the other. That's interesting I thought, as I realized that the chair had begun to move slowly, click by click, around in a circle. I felt excited.

A scene appeared of an older man dressed in a prom dress and heels; urgently stroking himself. I felt nothing at all.

To be continued tomorrow...

CHOOSING OUR SEXUALITY (continued)

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter 6

"Some attributes are largely male, and some attributes are largely female, but most attributes are shared by both male and female; however, they may be demonstrated in slightly different ways.

"Your task is to sit at this computer and study the attributes that will be shown on the screen. If you would like the attribute, you will check 'yes' in the box, and then you will check either 'great,' 'medium,' or 'small' as to the amount of the attribute you would like to have. If you do not want this attribute, you will simply hit the return button, and the new screen will show the next attribute. Do you understand these instructions?"

"Yes, the instructions seem very straight forward. I think I understand all that you have said. Where will you be while I'm answering these questions?"

"I will be right here if you need me, but do not worry, you will get the hang of it very quickly."

I turned around and looked at the computer screen. On it was the first attribute and I began to mark off the attributes I would like to have for this new life game. There were many that I chose: the list was about 200 attributes long. I chose bearing children and raising them, as a great amount; compassion, great; kindness, great; femininity, great; loving, great; understanding, great; emotional, great; gentleness, great; and intuitive, great. Then I chose ambition, medium; leadership, great; speed of decision-making, medium; math, medium; logic, great; courage, great; risk-taking, medium; child-protection, great; and strength, medium. There were many other choices that I made, but these were the ones that I felt strongest about.

When I had finished the list, there were two other questions to answer: are you comfortable with all of your choices? Yes, or no; and, do you want to review your list? Yes, or no. I answered yes to the first, and no to the second. Then I turned and faced Shannon again. For the first time I noticed a little silver box on the desk in front of Shannon.

"What's next, Shannon?"

"Well, Ann, in a few minutes, there will be a printout of your aggregate score, and you will know what degree of the 360 degree circle you fall under. Then I will explain the results to you. In about half of an hour there will also come out of the silver box, a silver disk that will help you in your next step."

Even as she spoke, I could see a printout coming out of the silver box. She gently removed the paper and looked it over. My heart was beating like crazy. I didn't really understand the point of all she was talking about, so I couldn't begin to know what to expect next.

"Well, Ann dear," said Shannon, "from the little I know of the life game you are creating, I think you will be very pleased, and I think you will understand the results of this test.

"Dear, you are going to be 220 degrees on the circle of maleness/femaleness. You are a strong 180 degree female, but you are also 40 degrees male. This can mean that you have all of the strengths of a woman and will be able to bear a large family, but also that you have chosen to be augmented by several usually male attributes. I take it that you have chosen a very difficult game to play and will have to have a great many different strengths in order to win your game?"

"Yes, Shannon, I almost wish that I could be male to handle all of my challenges, but it is clearly my choice to bear children, and most of the female attributes appealed to me the most. My strongest desire is to come from love in all that I do in this life game.

"Is it wierd to be a mix of male and female? Did I make strange choices?"

"No, Ann, you have made very good choices for the circumstances you will choose for yourself. And, if it will help you to understand, know that almost all persons end up with a mix of the male/female attributes. Only a very few, usually those who have a very short lifespan in time and space, are purely male or female, and that is because they face mostly physical problems, and do not need the added strengths that a more male/female sex would give them."

"Shannon, I think I am becoming "confuseder" and "confuseder." How does all of this affect whom we are attracted to in life?"

"That is a very good question, Ann, one that is going to be answered for you in the next room; room B."

And at that very moment, a little silver disk came out of the silver box on Shannon's desk.

"Ah, here it is," said Shannon, "we will just go over to room B now, and I will explain all of this to you."

And with that said, we left the room and walked toward room B. I glanced over to Glenna, and she shot me a look of encouragement.

Tomorrow: Chapter 7, choosing our sexual attractions...

CHOOSING OUR SEXUALITY

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter Six

We stepped out into a glorious, light-filled day with all of the birds in full concert mode.

The building we were approaching was a small building, with a roof of yellow topaz. It did not look like a frightening building, but I looked over at Glenna and she still had a very serious face.

The sign on the building, in solid gold, said House of Sexuality. Glenna held the door open for me and we entered into a very large hall. Around all of the sides of the hall were benches upholstered in red velvet. We took a seat to one side and I perused the walls on both sides of the hall.

The walls were paneled in solid oak. On the left wall was a large golden circle with gold lines marking each of its 360 degrees. Above the circle was a sign that said, THE SEXES. At the top of the circle, at the 360 degree mark, was the word MALE, and at the bottom, the 180 degree mark, was the word FEMALE.

On the right wall was another golden circle with gold lines marking each of its 360 degrees. Above the circle was a sign that said, DEGREES OF SEXUAL ATTRACTION. At the top of the circle, the 360 degree mark, were the letters M/F, and at the bottom of the circle, the 180 degree mark, were the letters F/M.

Further along the wall, on both sides, were doors. On the left side, the door had a sign that said ENTER A, and on the right side of the hall was a sign that said, ENTER B.

It was all quite mysterious, but interesting, and I looked over to Glenna for some kind of an explanation.

Glenna caught my look and gave me a little grin to reassure me.

"Ann, this is one of the most important buildings of all, for in here you will define your sexuality in this new life game. In past lives you have chosen many different ways to express your sexuality. At times you have chosen to be a man, and at times you have chosen to be a woman. Many times you have chosen degrees in-between the strictly 360 degree, or 180 degree mark; but at all times you have chosen to express sexuality in such a manner that your goals for your life game would lead you to a win of the game. It is important to remember that ONE creates all expressions of love and attraction; is all expressions of love and attraction; all degrees of maleness/femaleness, for nothing exists outside of ONE."

"Well, Glenna, I do not understand all that you are saying, so I will have to trust you."

The door on the left opened and a tall young woman came out and approached us.

"Hello, and welcome to the House of Sexuality. I will be your guide; my name is Shannon, and you must be Ann?"

"Yes," I responded, and arose from the seat.

I noticed that Glenna remained seated and I turned to her and asked her if she was coming also. She shook her head no, and then added, "I will wait here for you. Shannon will take good care of you."

Shannon reached for my hand and led me gently into the dimly-lit room behind ENTER A.

The room was almost empty except for a small desk and chair, and a computer in front of a cushioned desk chair. On the left side of the room the walls were covered in bouquets of pink and yellow roses, and on the right side of the room, the walls were covered in pictures of different sports events. It looked kind of weird and added to the sense I had of the mysterious nature of the room; of this building.

Shannon motioned for me to sit in the desk chair in front of the computer, and she sat at the desk and turned to look at me directly.

"My dear," said Shannon, "I am sure you must be startled by what you see in this building and in this room.

"Have you chosen to be a woman in your next life game?"

"Yes, I have. I am going to have many children and grandchildren, and I am going to be married to Charles Albert."

"That is very good that you have already made your major decision in this area of life.

"In this room you will decide what degree of maleness/femaleness you will choose. You will be playing a computer game in which you will choose which attributes you need, to accomplish your goals in this life game. It is a very simple choice-game. You will be shown a list of attributes you need, to accomplish your goals in this life game. It is a very simple choice-game. You will be shown a list of attributes and characteristics, and you will choose which attribute/characteristic you need, to construct your personal sexuality in this life game. There are no wrong or right attributes here, just choose any, or all, that you would like to have.

To be continued tomorrow...

CHOOSING YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS (conclusion)

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter Five

Then Charlie stood up and called for his two children to come forth.

"Mom, this is Lindsey and Mark, they have something to say to you."

"Grandma," said Lindsey, "it will seem to you that I am very far away and that I can't feel your love, but be very sure that I will never forget all the thoughts and gifts you'll send my way. You always will remember me though I will live very far from you, and I will always be there loving you and hoping for the day when we can become very close. Be assured that I do love you and always will."

"Grandma," said Mark, "you will enter my life very few times, as I will live so very far away from you, but be very assured that I notice your love for me, and I will not forget you, and I will love you always."

When they had all sat down again, Jared stood up and proudly called for his three children.

"Mom," said Jared, "this is Drake, David, and Phoebe. They all want to say something to you."

"Grandma," said Drake, "I will also have a rough go at the start of my life, but you will love me and have faith in my inate gifts. My mother and father are wonderful and spare no effort to give me the best. I promise you that as I grow I will come to know you and we will be very close. I will always love you."

"Grandma," said David J., "we may not see each other as often as we would like, because we live so far apart, but I will always feel your love and interest in me. There will come a day when we will be close and I will always feel your love and support. I want you to know that I love you, and thanks for teaching dad so well. I am gifted with such loving parents."

"Grandma," said Phoebe, "you will teach me many things in life even though we are not living close together. I have always felt your love and the excitement you anticipated my birth with. I will be your youngest grandchild and that will be a special bond between us. I will always love you."

Then my son, David, stood up and spoke.

"Mom, I will not be giving you any grandchildren, but I will raise a number of your other grandchildren. I will raise them in the manner that you raised me, and that is with great love and acceptance. You have always been such a great strength to me, and I will always carry your message of love in all that I do."

Well, I don't mind telling you that my mind and heart were reeling from all that I had heard and experienced. There was so much love in the room that I actually shook.

I looked around the room at all of my children and grandchildren, and their generations, and I began to realize that accepting all of this would require a great deal of strength, perseverance, and love. I would have to plan my life game very carefully, but I felt energized and motivated at the thought of each of them, and their unconditional love. I had made up my mind and heart.

"My dear husband, children, and grandchildren, I do so love each of you. I will give you my love, acceptance and my energy. I choose each and all of you, and I will become the matriarch that you are requesting me to be. All of my life everything will be done for your sakes."

A rousing cheer went up from around the room and I thanked them for their support. Then I suggested that we all enjoy this wonderful party they had prepared. We partied until we were all exhausted: food, dancing, beautiful music, and a chance to go around the room and become better acquainted with each of them. Truly only in this sacred home, we were all a part of, could such love be comprehended.

Finally, I saw Glenna coming towards me, she was smiling but somehow I detected a note of seriousness in her demeanor.

"Well, Ann, our next journey awaits us. It is good that you have felt the love of your children and grandchildren, and chosen a husband for yourself. All of this will help you get through our next adventure, the sexuality house."

And with that said, we walked out the door.

Tomorrow, Chapter 6, the House of Sexuality...

CHOOSING YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS (cont.)

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter Five

With that, I saw a very handsome man stand up and start walking towards me, and Jared continued: "Mom, I would like you to meet Charles Albert. Dad, I would like you to meet our mother, Ann."

"Hello, Ann. Sorry that this is happening so abruptly for you, you must be kind of overwhelmed. I want to assure you that I love you and want you to be my wife. The children have decided that between the two of us we could provide the requisite DNA that they all require to do the tasks they have elected to do. They will know that I will choose them and care for them, and they know that you will be their best teacher. I promise you that if you will accept me to be your husband and the father of your children, that you will never go hungry and always feel protected."

"Well, Charles, that is very flattering and your promises make me unafraid to make the proper choices. If my children want you to become their father then I accept that, and I know that I will come to love you. Thank you for choosing me also."

My heart ached. I had so wanted Ed to be the father of my children, but now I understood why Ed had chosen Linda to be his wife and the mother of his children. I understood the power of love you have for your children and how you will tend to choose what would make them happy and give them the greatest amount of growth.

At that moment, a tall young man came up to me with a pitcher and filled my goblet.

"Hi, grandma, my name is Walter and I will always serve you, for you will always believe in me and love me."

"Well, Walt, I rejoice in that, thank you!"

Then one of the young ladies at my table stood up and introduced herself as Becky.

"Mom, I won't be an easy child to raise, for my path will be very difficult, but I promise you that I will always adore you and be your best friend. Now I want to introduce my sister, Carol, to you because she wants to tell you something also."

With that, the third young woman at my table stood up. She was absolutely gorgeous and had very tender eyes.

"Mom, you will only see me for a moment in your life, but you will have fought for me from the time I was conceived. I will come to you as a special blessing of joy, at a sacred time on Earth. Trust me that I love you and will never leave your side."

Debby stood then and called out three names; the three names of her children. In a moment three beautiful young people came up to the table.

"Mom, this is Laura, James, and Sheera."

"Grandma," said Laura, "I will be your oldest grandchild and I will always make sure that you will be protected. I love you deeply and I appreciate the role we will have in each other's lives."

"Grandma," said James, "we will always have a special bond between us and when no one else is there, you will always be there for me. I will always love and protect you."

"Grandma," said Sheera, "you will always love me, even though I have a rough game to play. You will call me your 'Song of Joy' and that will carry me far. I will always love and defend you."

Then Becky stood up and called out for her children to come up.

"Mom, I will have a big family like you are choosing. I will bear 13 children, but only five will live. You will never judge me, but always support and love me. I'd like to introduce you to Skeeta II, Walter, whom you've already met, Sierra, Warren, and William."

"Grandma," said Skeeta, "we will have a very strong bond, and myself, and my wife, Lindsay, will give you your first great-grandchild, Kira Michelle. I will always love you and take care of you, that is my promise to you."

"Grandma," said Walter, "I love you and I will always believe in you."

"Grandma," said Sierra, "you will give me trust when I most need it. You will always be there for me, and I will always be there for you. I love you."

"Grandma," said Warren, "the time will come when I must choose a direction in life. I will be looking in one direction, and you will love-campaign me until I can see how such a path would endanger my future wife and children. You will love and accept me so strongly that I will become the best that I can be. Thank you, I will always love you."

"Grandma," said William, "you will wrap me in your heart and give me council and guidance. You will bring beauty and hope into my life and will start me on my academic career. I will always love you and be there for you."

To be continued tomorrow...

CHOOSING YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter Five

Glenna and I went out into the warm evening; thousands of stars were visible to us. The smell of night-blooming Jasmine filled the air; everything was so perfect.

Glenna was leading me to a large bungalow that looked like all the lights were on inside. Laughter and happy music tumbled out of the windows. Glenna knocked on the door and a young man answered. He immediately turned back to the room and said, "Hey guys! It's mom!"

I was besieged by young people laughing and calling my name; calling me mom or grandma.

"Glenna," I asked, "who are all of these young people?"

"Why, Ann, they're your children and grandchildren, or at least they would like to be your children and grandchildren, if you decide to choose them."

The young man who opened the door introduced himself as David, and asked my forgiveness if they had come on too strong for me.

"No, David, I am delighted to meet all of you; but so many?"

"Don't worry Ann," he said, "all is contingent upon your choice, but we are all here tonight in the greatest hope that you will accept us and be our mother."

The room seemed to expand, and I could see hundreds of people in the background; they were all bright lights clothed in toga-style robes of every color imaginable, and they were all singing and talking at once.

Glenna motioned for everyone to be silent for a while and it gave me an opportunity to really take in the entire bungalow.

The room was glorious. All about the room were flowers of every description, balloons, banners, and a bubble machine. Two huge fountains cascaded wine and grape juice into enormous cauldrons. Tables were laid out covered in every cake, candy, and cookie imaginable. There were fruit and vegetables of every type; bowls of special dips abounded, and there were breads, crackers, and hundreds of varieties of cheese. It was a virtual gourmet's paradise!

Music of every description anointed the air around us; different areas played different types of music so that everyone could listen to their favorites. On the walls were "pictures" of different beautiful landscapes from around home, only they were not static pictures but were in virtual reality so that if you were standing by a picture you could smell the flowers, and other scents, going on right then; could see and hear other people, or animals, as they enjoyed the area...truly mesmerizing.

Wow, such a party was going on! I hoped it would last forever.

Then a beautiful young lady came up to me and introduced herself to me as Debby. She said that I should sit at the head of the table because they all had something to ask me of a very serious nature. With that, I took the seat offered and the room became very quiet.

Debby said that they were all having a party to celebrate the closing of deals with their own children and grandchildren, and that all the pieces of the family had been laid out except to pass it by myself to see if I could accept their proposals. Seated closest to me were Debby and two girls named Becky and Carol, and three young men named Charlie, Jared, and the young man from the front door, David.

The young man named Charlie arose and addressed me.

"Mom, I pray you will choose me as your son, I have been asked to address you for my brothers and sisters and all of your prospective grandchildren.

"It will not be an easy task to become our mother. We have all chosen different paths; different races and different life styles. We are all very different from each other and we all have strong minds and opinions, but we all have one thing in common, we love you and want to be taught by you.

"We know you will be strong enough to give us freedom of expression and path, and we will teach you to love without expectations. We have eternal gifts to give you if you will only trust in us and accept us."

With that said, Charlie sat down and another young man named Jared stood up. He smiled reassurance to me.

"Mom, we have chosen a man to be our father and you do not know him yet. He is a good, hardworking man who will provide for all of us while you raise us up to adulthood, but without your choosing him also, we will have to start our process all over again. Let me introduce him to you."

With that, I saw a very handsome man stand up and start walking towards me, and Jared continued:

More of Chapter Five tomorrow...

CHOOSING PLANET EARTH (CONTINUED)

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven and Hell,  Chapter Four  (continued)...
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        
The next video Glenna started was for the planet Earth.
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        
The beautiful blue and green jewel sparkled in the light from a bright sun, and a single moon rotated around her. My heart leapt with joyful recognition.

Scene after scene unfolded; all the colors of the rainbow in the sky, the waters, the fish, the animals, the birds, the flowers. Human beings were black, brown, white, yellow, red, and all of the shadings in between. There were mountains, valleys, deserts; plains, forests, jungles; oceans, lakes, rivers; such unspeakable richness.

Then other scenes unfolded: murders; wars; hate; prejudice. It seemed that revenge and greed were the basis for most human actions on Earth. Their's was certainly a primitive planet.

However, as the video continued, I saw a small boy rescue a large dog from a rain-swollen river; so I felt some hope. Maybe there was enough love available on this planet for it to advance spiritually. Something inside of me told me that I would like to take part in making this happen. I felt a challenge before me, and could hardly wait to engage in this experience.

"I think that's the one, Glenna. I really feel engaged with that planet, as if there was something there for me to do."

"Well, Ann, I thought that planet might interest you, however, let's also look at Sylvan before you decide. Sylvan is very much like Earth, but I think you'll see the difference, and you just might change your mind."

Glenna slipped the Sylvan video into the machine and soon there appeared on the screen a planet that must be Earth's twin sister. There were the same sun and moon; the same geography, and the same marvelous occurance of color in the people, and in all nature. I wondered what was going on here, were there two Earths? I had never heard of such a thing.

I continued watching the video, this time concentrating on the people themselves. I watched for some time and got the feeling that something was missing. What am I missing, I thought, everything looks the same and yet there was something; and then I caught it. It was peaceful. No wars were going on; the people were not fighting amongst themselves, and there was no separation of people into categories such as color, race, religion, or nationality. There appeared to be one benevolent government (and if that's not an oxymoron I don't know one!)

"What am I seeing, Glenna? I see it but I just don't quite get it!"

"Well, not to worry Ann, it is very subtle what you are observing. Sylvan is an alternate dimension of Earth. It is Earth as if very different choices were made by the humans on the planet. The people of Sylvan have never chosen violence, or hatred, instead they have chosen love and the best of possibilities for each other and the world they tend. What do you think now?"

"It is very tempting to go to Sylvan, but you know, I'm feeling hesitancy at the thought. I don't see a very great opportunity to work on my weaknesses; to grow up and choose correct paths for myself. I know it sounds kind of dumb, but it looks too easy, not enough challenge."

Glenna didn't answer to that but merely took the Sylvan video out of the machine.

"So you are choosing to go to Earth again; back into the fray? Having to struggle for every understanding; for every bit of knowledge; for every crumb of love?"

"I guess I have Glenna; I know I have. Thank you for showing me this."

We remained quiet in the room for some time; just sat staring at the darkened screen. Then with a deep sigh, I asked Glenna what was next on the program. She said that she had a wonderful surprise coming up for me next and that we would rest in the garden outside while all the preparations were being made.

(Tomorrow we start Chapter Five, Choosing your own Family...)

CHOOSING PLANET EARTH

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven and Hell,  Chapter Four...

"Well, Ann," said Glenna, when we had finished our lunch in the Past Lives Pavillion, "I think you're going to like the next place we're going to, the Worlds of the Cosmos Library, because you'll get a chance to see different planets that are in the constraints of time and space, and get to choose which world you want to go to next. So let's get going; if you're ready."

We walked to the next building; an enormous building with a sapphire roof-at the entrance, in gold letters, it said, Worlds of the Cosmos.

The entrance hall ceiling had a working model of the Sombrero Galaxy, a spiral galaxy. To the left and right lay wings of a huge library with row after row of books. Above the arch leading into the left side of the library were the letters A to L, and above the arch leading into the right side of the library were the letters M to Z.

The rooms were carpeted in 2" deep plush, so much fun to walk on. We chose to enter the right side of the library and Glenna showed me that the books were filled with videos. She explained that each row represented a galaxy in the Cosmos and on the shelves of each row were books of videos showing each star, and its planets, in that galaxy.

On a table at the start of each row, was a large encyclopedic book of the galaxy represented in that row. We stopped at the first encyclopedia table and looked at the pictures of planets in the Mentaur galaxy. Nothing from that galaxy tugged at my heart, although each planet was unique and very beautiful. So we went around the room, taking it easy, looking through the encyclopedia for each galaxy.

When we had circled the room and had looked through the encyclopedia of each of the M through Z galaxies, Glenna steered me through a door that opened into a large area filled with couches and fireplaces. A warm, inviting room with tables covered in cut up fruits and vegetables. There were deep vats of dressings and platters of richly crusted breads. Under domed glass trays were servings of every type of cheese imaginable, and fountains tinkled with iced fruit juices.

Glenna and I filled our trays and found a deep red couch to snuggle into. On the hearth in front of us, were curled a pair of white Persian kittens, kneading their paws reflexively in their sleep. We just relaxed and didn't speak for a while. My mind went over the pictures we had been looking at, and I was deeply in awe at the wide-ranging landscapes in the different galaxies.

"Did any of the galaxies stand out to you, Ann?" asked Glenna.

"Well, when we came to the Milky Way galaxy, several planets seemed familiar; seemed to tug at my heart."

"That's not surprising Ann, you have spent many life games on the planets in that galaxy: MX-11; Earth; and Sylvan. When we go back in, we'll take out videos on those planets and see if you'd be interested in choosing one of them for your new life game."

After finishing our meal, we strolled back into the M to Z library and found the Milky-Way-Galaxy row. There, we chose video books on the planets MX-11, Earth, and Sylvan. Then Glenna led me out of the library area and to the back of the "Worlds of the Cosmos" building where there were several sets of large dark-blue doors.

Opening a set of doors, Glenna led me into a semi-dark room where there were other sets of doors. Opening a door on our left, we entered a room that had a huge screen on one end. In front of the screen were two recliners, and between them a table with another large wooden box with a slot for inserting the videos we had brought.

We got comfortable and Glenna inserted the video for MX-11. MX-11 was a small gray planet with two moons. Its surface was stark desert. There were four large oceans, and three spiky, orange mountain ranges.

Huge steel and glass cities floated a hundred feet above the desert floor. Inside of the city-enclosures could be seen fields and trees, lakes and waterfalls. The scene was ethereally beautiful, but something about it made my heart sad. I motioned to Glenna to stop the video.

The next video Glenna started was for the planet Earth.

To be continued tomorrow...

HEAVEN: Music is the language of the Cosmos.

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven and Hell,  Chapter Three...

Here, at home, we do whatever we want to do, and go wherever we want to go, in the entire Cosmos. All is love and joy, luxury and sensuality. We spend the majority of being at home. All energy forms from the entire Cosmos know here as home. We are all one; this is Heaven.

Anything you can imagine, IS. Say you want to visit a certain mountain range, with thought you are there; or you can choose to walk if you would like to. Communication is principally accomplished with telepathy, however when a person is speaking to, or performing for, a large group of persons, they generally talk out loud. There is only one language, understood and used by all, and that language is music. Music is the language of the Cosmos; the language of the soul. Since there is an infinite number of tones and tonal variations, each energy form has its own unigue tone, just as in our life games we each have a distinctive voice frequency.

Our bodies are energy forms, young and lithe, beautiful and strong. We were created from ONE'S own energy, as was all, and given the great gifts of free will and freedom of choice.

There is nothing outside of ONE. The positive and the negative poles are contained in his energy. The entire Cosmos and all that is in it are ONE. All of the dimensions, all of the levels in each dimension, are ONE. All recognize and praise ONE for the tender love he has for all he created.

When ONE was bored, he decided to have some fun by experiencing all he created in a series of God Games. All he created would experience mortality and play life games in which they would be given an opportunity to experience the consequences of having free will and freedom of choice. He would interact with his energy forms, if they chose, and at any rate he would experience exactly what they experience. No more room for boredom, he would experience both love and pain.

It is all about love. Love is not a weak, ephemeral feeling, but the great Force, the great energy, that runs the Cosmos: that is the Cosmos; that is, ONE.

I decided to go to Game Development and start my process towards playing a new life game. The Game Development buildings are on an island, called the Isle of Purpose, not far from my home. This island, situated in a large bay, the bay of Nestor, was covered by large parks so beautiful that many came to the island just for recreation, but its major purpose was to house the buildings that were necessary to guide us in the playing of life games. It is an exciting process that is both fraught with tension, because we face our own true selves, and yet joyful, because we see that we can become ever more advanced spiritually.

In the struggle of a life game itself, many persons do not care about advancing spiritually, and that is what they choose here, for reasons of their own. We are all very different as beings, and the paths we choose to follow are wildly divergent. After playing hundreds of life games before, I understand their positions. I have been there before myself. We retain all the memories and emotions from all of our life games, but we cannot access those memories in a current life game, except on rare occasions. We can see, here, what the consequences have been from all the choices we made in our previous games. In previous games I have caused pain and been in pain each time, but I have also built relationships with other beings that have been maintained here in  this Land of Promise.

This Land of Promise is a reward, if you will, that all of us attain when we are not playing a life game. If we have not advanced at all in our previous game, we directly proceed to our next life game with no stop for enjoyment or rest. Life games are Hell. Experiences in life games tend to make us seek a higher level where we can experience joy. Joy is the great motivator toward advancing spiritually. Eventually, all persons attain enlightenment and follow the path of joy to a sure knowledge of ONE, and stay infinitely in the Land of Promise. That, of course, is our goal: infinite pleasure and joy; infinite love; the experience of ONE.

The road to the Isle of Purpose is paved deeply with soft, warm, white sand, and cherry trees line both sides of the road. The rich, delicate scent of cherry blossoms fell about my shoulders like a robe. My mind went out and plucked a blossom which then drifted into my hand. The aroma was exquisite and its tone was pure middle A.

To be continued tomorrow, Chapter Four, we choose the planet to be born on...

LOVE AND THE NATURE OF HEAVEN

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven and Hell, Chapter Two (cont.)

"How are you doing dear?" I ask.

"Well I've been to Game Development and made some choices in my new life game. I need to talk to you about one choice I've made. Hopefully you will be able to understand and concur.

"I've decided not to meet you until near the end of my life game. I chose another woman to be my wife and bear my children. I care about this woman and she has chosen me in her life game because she knows that I will provide well for our children. The children have chosen her and me to be their parents because they require certain strengths we can provide them. Of course there is love and respect involved, I won't kid you. I also have chosen them to be a part of my life game. They are beautiful spirits; we have always been close friends and we have been together during many other life games."

"I do understand you, and I understand the nature of the game, but we have also been together in other life games before, and my game will be much harder without you."

"Ann, trust me," he replied, "I will find you. You can make it until I do. You do understand the eternal commitment we share, and know this, if we are strong and can recognize this commitment at some point in our life games, we will be bound together as one when we return home. This is my goal."

"Sweetheart, how will we recognize each other in the confusion of our daily life games?"

"I will be looking for the bride of the lamb all of my life; someone with a heart of gold. One day I will want to watch the movie, The Game, and you will be the only other one in the group who will want to watch it. I will notice you and ask you a key question,  'what did Jesus say was the most important commandment,' and you will answer immediately,  'love one another as I have loved you.' I will write you a letter then, and you will recognize me in your heart."

"Thank you Ed, I will recognize you; I will choose to recognize you as my number one priority."

"Okay honey, let's go have some fun. Would you like to go to a concert? There are many playing; you choose."

"Well, I would like to hear Neil Young, or Crosby, Stills and Nash, or Paul Simon."

"I feel drawn to Neil right now. You ready?"

We thought together and found ourselves on a great, grassy slope with Neil Young and Crazy Horse in the near distance, and-apropos to our recent discussion-they were playing, "Heart of Gold." Ed squeezed my hand and my heart swelled with joy. This was home all right, think it and it was exactly as you thought. Want to be somewhere and you were there; desire, and it is fulfilled in the very movement toward it.

Neil Young was grand, as usual. Afterwards, Ed asked if I would like some fruit. The fruit stands were loaded with fruit of every variety and color. We chose a big bag full, and decided to have a picnic at the Portals. With that thought, we were sitting at a picnic table before a high, white, mountain chisled with slate-blue creases down its front and sides. As we sat there eating, we noticed that the boughs of two pines in front of us framed the mountain's top, which was covered with snow. The stream at our feet was running swiftly and trout were busy making their way downstream to a large lake.

When we had finished our fruit, Ed said that we should climb the narrow, rocky path to the summit of the mountain. There were three beautiful lakes we passed, but other than a few moments stop to gaze at each lake, we pushed on until we got to the top. There we could see for hundreds of miles around us; verdant hills and valleys, and a huge desert, stretched out before us, and we could even see the tops of the white marble buildings that were so close to our homes.

We climbed down from the top of the mountain and Ed decided that we should both check in at our respective homes. We made a plan to get together again as soon as possible.

I remember the pain of my past life games for perhaps one-eighth of a moment. The joy and beauty here expunges that memory by the second-eighth of a moment.

Let me describe for you, life here in Heaven.   (To be continued tomorrow...)

WHAT HAPPENED WHEN GOD GOT BORED?

What happened when God got bored?  He created the God Games!

ONE (God) created all, then realized that he was lonely and bored, having no one to share in the wonders that he had created: no one to talk to; no way to experience his creation on his own. So he next created energy forms (people) from his own energy to keep him company. Then he created the God Games, so that he could experience his creation through the life games that his energy forms play.

These energy forms would live life games in which the goal of the game is to come to realize that you are love, and that you are one with ONE. As ONE'S children, energy forms go out into the Cosmos and they experience much in their life games. ONE thus experiences all of his creations. ONE was no longer bored.

As you know by now, my name is Ann, and I've had a rebellious spirit from the start. I sat at breakfast kicking the chair leg and trying to ignore my father's endless discussions.

I have thousands of brothers and sisters. The table was incredibly long, yet only a fraction of the family was here. Most of the family were gone playing the game of life.

Suddenly father's voice broke through my reveries, "Ann! Ann!"

"What father?"

"Ann, I've set up a meeting for you with the Council of Elders. Will you be there?"

"Of course father, I'll be there."

Oh grief, I thought; trepidation filled my heart. What would they ask of me? Would I have to leave this wonderful home again?

After breakfast, mom came around and hugged me and whispered, "Don't be afraid Ann, you're ready."

I quietly slipped out the door and walked down the path to the machine house, kicking pebbles as I walked. Then I turned off the path into the woods. The sky was radiant and seasgulls dipped and drifted above on their way to the sea. The trees were filled with birds of every size and hue. I stopped and listened to their songs. They seemed so carefree; not like my heart at this moment.

I wandered down a winding, needle-paved path, stopping only to play a game of hopscotch. Deep in the woods-that were lit by ONE'S energy-I found a clearing that was my quiet place. Surrounded by pines, a little lake glistened, while beautiful flowers of all colors sang songs of joy. I had long ago discoverd that each type and color of flower emitted a different tone, and all the tones of the flowers, combined to create concerts of familiar music.

I sat down in my chair, a pure white rock that gently shone and formed its shape to fit my body. A deer and her fawn nibbled on the deep green grass, while a pair of foxes leaped and rolled by the lake. Peace; deep peace, surrounded me. Joy swelled my heart and erased the fear I had been feeling. My mind cleared, and I praised ONE for creating such a heavenly world.

Choices, so many choices to make: which planet to go to? Whom would I choose to be my parents, my children, my grandchildren? Which cosmetics, size, health, and attitude would I choose? Should I become male or female? but most of all, which challenges would I take on, which handicaps would I labor under? There was so much to consider.

The game of life, to go into the fray again stirred my soul; to face time and space, so constricting. Negativity and pain were an assured part of the package-no getting away from those when dealing with other humans playing their life games. Then there was the part of having death hanging over your head and no understanding or remembrance of home to ward off fear and pain. Pain, so much pain is involved-it seems-in every part of the life game: physical pain; emotional pain; spiritual pain. It boggles the mind to think that we actually choose to play the game at all.

I've been considering what decisions I'd make when the time came to go before Game Development. I want to become more loving and less judgemental; traits I've had to work on in other life games. But I had one thing going for me in this new life game; it could be my last. I have the choice, if I accept certain struggles, to actually find out who I am in this game. I have to be certain to choose great strength and perseverance if I want to succeed. So at least I know those qualities must come as first choices. I must keep my eyes on the single goal of coming back home again and never having to go back and play more life games. I can do it, I know I can. My love for ONE and the hope of eternal oneness with him will keep me on the path that will lead to self-awareness.

I heard footsteps on the path and turned to see Ed walking towards me: a tall, gentle man; very advanced spiritually. I adore him.

"Keep your seat love, I'll sit on the next rock," he said.

To be continued tomorrow...

REVIEWING MY PAST LIVES...

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven and Hell...CHAPTER ONE (CONT.)...Glenna and I entered the room to find it comfortably furnished with plush couches in front of a large viewing screen. There were also tables with bowls of fresh fruit and nuts on them, and pitchers full of water and iced pomegranite juice.

Glenna told me to sit and down and relax, and showed me where to insert the game cartridge into the wooden box by the side of my couch. She explained that I would guide the choice of past lives for viewing by simple thought commands. She suggested that I start from the beginning of my creation, and proceed from one life to the next in simple order. She told me she would be near if I had any questions, and that I could stop viewing if I had any problems remembering life games that had been safely stored away in the archives.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, then opened my eyes to a scene of brilliant white light. Flames erupted, and a single burning ember was separated from the center of the brilliant white light.

       "ONE:
      
       "I AM:
 
       "I AM LOVE.

       "YOU ARE ONE:

       "YOU ARE LOVE."

Suddenly the bright light disappeared and all around was turmoil and such pain. I took a breath and it burned my lungs, but it was followed by fresh, cool air. I screamed, and then heard soothing sounds as I was clutched and held by a woman I knew to be my mother.

There followed 20 other short life games as I learned to survive my first breath.

I lived a hunderd flash-lives as a blade of grass, an ant, a bee, a flower, and so forth, as I learned patience and obedience. I was beginning to notice and react to different frequencies.

There were life games filled with poverty and loss.

There was a life on a planet in a red galaxy.

I was a Greek girl with poems, running to hid them from her sisters.

I had been a black, male slave in the salt mines of northern Africa.

I was a Chinese girl cringing in a pile of straw waiting for a war lord's men to destroy her father's shed.

I had been an early pioneer woman of Iowa with eleven children.

I had been a very ill man working for the railroad, digging tunnels through mountains.

Some of the lives had only one great moment; some with not even one half-great moment, but I began to experience moments of joy and love.

I won none of these past life games-none at all-although I did grow and advance spiritually. I had no idea of who I was or why I came there; no concept of a great game.

Now, here I was on the Isle of Purpose, ready to choose another life game. Could I choose a path this time that would lead to a win of the game? I knew that I must put all of my strengths together, and all of my hard-won wisdom from these past games, if I choose to triumph over my own self and return home a winner, never to leave home again...unless I choose to.

The responsibility of all this choosing business is daunting. I know that to be able to choose is ONE'S (God's) greatest gift to each of us, but the consequences of an unwise choice is so far-reaching and we so often trample all over every opportunity that comes our way in life games. It would be so much easier to win a life game if a game manual were issued to us at birth, but oh no, not a clue is given. However, on reflection we are not left alone to our own devices-at least not entirely- for we have this mysterious sensation in our mid-chests that burns with fiery joy when we hear truth or feel love.

Finally, I got through all of my past life games but I was overwehelmed by the stress of seeing so much pain and worry; so little progress. I felt discouraged and turned to find Glenna..

"Am I ever going to win the game?"

"Yes, Ann. Yes you are, and this time you can choose to win the game before you die and come back home, but such a final game takes a lot of planning and you will have to ovecome many challenges to do so."

"Can you help me and guide me in making my choices? I asked.

"Ann, I can help you see a path and a pattern here, but once you start your life game you are on your own as far as choosing how to follow your path. But Ann, remember that you are always one with ONE, and all you have to do is ask and you will be given."

Then we laid back and relaxed and enjoyed the music and the refreshments. I do so like to eat.

As I relaxed, I began to wonder how everything got started. I remembered my Heavenly Father saying that after he had created all, he had felt lonely and bored as he had no one to share his creations with.

Chapter Two continues tomorrow...

A MOMENTS GLANCE INTO THE PURPOSE OF HEAVEN

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven and Hell - CHAPTER ONE---
I could see the Isle of Purpose across the gray, weathered bridge that completed the path from my Heavenly Home, to the Isle where I would make choices for a new life game. I felt a great urge to rush across the bridge and get started on my new pathway. I began to run.

As my feet landed on the Isle of Purpose I could see what looked like a small ball of light coming towards me. As the light came closer, I could begin to see the shape of a lovely mature woman inside of it. I had never had anyone manifest themselves to me like this before, but I was not afraid, instead I felt waves of great joy wash over me.

The lady grinned at the surprised look on my face as she came to a stop before me.

"Hi , Ann!" she said. "My name is Glenna, and I'm your 'tour guide' while you're here on the Isle of Purpose. I'm also your guidance couselor as you make choices and obseve many different situations."

Glenna explained to me that although there were many beautiful visions to be seen on the Isle of Purpose, there were also views that might cause old fears to rise: old fears from past experiences; old pains that I once prayed never to be exposed to again. This is, she said, an island in the middle of the bridge from our Heavenly Home to other life games played, and not played, by yourself and others. There is also on this island the very room of exchange where we feel our first pain; the transportation room between this dimension of home and the other dimensions which are subjected to time and space.

"You are tense and worried now," said Glenna, "so just relax a moment. Take a deep breath. Now look around the island, see the great beauty and know that all has been prepared for your comfort and joy during this excursion. Also remember that you are always here by choice; anytime you want to you can think and be back in your quiet place again."

I took a deep breath and felt the joy of home wash through me. I am choosing another life game in order to grow and develop; hopefully become a more advanced person, but more than that I want another challenge, another opportunity to win the game. I told Glenna to push on; I was ready.

The island is in the shape of a huge sea shell, surrounded by marvelous gardens of all varieties, and capped by ten beautiful buildings. The buildings lay in the shape of a horse-shoe and were made of white marble topped by roofs made of a single precious jewel. In the center of the horse-shoe was the tallest building of all. Its roof was created of a single diamond, 100 feet tall, that sent waves of rainbow-colored light all over the island. Small bungalows were scattered around the island which Glenna told me were for resting and reflecting as we made our journey around the island.

The first building that we came to was topped by a deep green emerald. Glenna told me that this was the building of Past Lives, and that in this building I was going to be taken on a trip through my past lives, rather like a virtual reality game. She explained that there were viewing machines inside and that I would be given a cartridge that contained movies of my hundreds of past lives. I was to view these past lives to get a sense of where I was comiong from, and what lessons I had already learned.

We entered the cool, lovely embrace of a large round building. Soft music could be heard in the background, and a lovely 50 foot waterfall fell from what appeared to be a moss and fern garden near the ceiling. Around the sides of the huge room were viewing rooms with names at their front entrance. I spotted a room with the name "Ann" on the door.  (To be continued tomorrow...)

"SHARE SMILES", by Joseph Lindsay

In honor of Joseph Lindsay, a man of great wisdom, who said, "share smiles...they are still free!!"

JUST THE WAY YOU ARE

God loves you JUST THE WAY YOU ARE right now! My dreams are filled with the echoes of this sentence. Nine words that changed my way of thinking and experiencing, but that I could not hear for the first 53 years of my life. Those 53 years were filled with self-doubt and hatred of who I thought I was; a sinner they told us in church. I knew in my heart that I had broken most of the ten commandments at one point in my life, or another. I knew I had a black heart and that I could never expect God to love me as I was...One day, in my 53rd year, I lay in a hospital and could not sleep. I wanted to pray but felt that God would not listen to someone like me...The hours dragged on, I lay in the cold, dark room and stared at the ceiling tiles, counting their little holes. I became very still inside-I had the physical feeling that I was being talked to, that words were being formed-and then I "felt" the following words inside my being. "God loves you just as you are right now."...I gasped and said aloud, "What?" and then I heard a second time, "God loves you just as you are right now." Just as I am right NOW? Could that possibly be? And then I felt a change in my heart, as if a door had been opened; a door I had kept locked for years. Pure joy and intense love filled me and overflowed into my body and then out into the small, square room. I suddenly knew that I was very loved just as I am; the good and the bad. I felt that God would be disappointed by my negative choices, and that consequences follow from breaking laws, but that all of that didn't stop him from loving me; the real me...God loves YOU just as you are right now.

CHANGE WORLD FREQUENCIES TO LOVE

If you are new to my blog, please page down to LOVE IN! LOVE IN! LOVE IN! I am trying to gather support for a minute 12:12 a.m. Greenwich Mean Time, on 12/12/2012, during which every one on Earth will join together to express, or feel in their hearts, love for every other person on Earth. We must become human beings who care that the world continues and that love and unity unites us as one people. We may have different cultures, politics, goals, but if we all have the one goal of love for our fellow man then our Earth can become the Paradise it was intended to be. Destruction, catastrophies, natural disasters, if they should come, and it is sure that natural disasters recur repeatedly, will be handled with the best possible outcomes if we pull together as one human people and give each other our loving support. Pull together and the battles are won. Share global love and suddenly the threat of nuclear attacks becomes part of the past. Watch out for each other's backs and we all win. I visualize people all over the world making 12/12/12 a day of global celebration; a love Festival, where we all become more aware of other people's cultures, dances, music, stories, and teachings. Let the message be passed from mouth to mouth, heart to heart, and mind to mind, and then on 12/12/12 we will have the world's largest party.

COSMIC HOLOGRAM #2

Sometimes you look at a hologram from a certain angle and all you can see is darkness. In that moment remember that the hologram in all of its color and light still exists, we just need to change our angle of looking at it to see that light; those colors.

COSMIC HOLOGRAM

All is a hologram made up of different dimensions; different frequencies. From every perspective we have a unique view of the second that is. No perspective is WRONG, it simply exists, and as we move through life we view the hologram from different viewpoints. Some viewpoints may be more positive than negative as the hologram is a whole with positive and negative poles. If you find yourself stuck gazing at a negative viewpoint, shift your perspectives, change the paradigm, and seek until you find the positive viewpoint. The hologram is dazzling in its beauty and its complexity/simplicity. It is ONE.

MISCHI'S TERROR

THE GOD GAMES:Legend of Kor...Chapter Two: Misch's eyes suddenly opened. It was still dark. Something felt wrong. Her heart pounded, she became more aware and could hear a twig snap outside her home. She began to panic. She had heard the stories of night raids in Voun, and elsewhere in Kor, by Gog's men. They said that his soldiers come into a city and burn buildings, rape the women, and steal children to use as slaves. She turned and shook her husband and he grunted sleepily..."Wake up Thorn, wake up! Someone is outside in the yard!"...Suddenly galvaized by his wife's words, Thorn jumped out of bed and grabbed for his shotgun, then he went to the window and carefully pulled the curtain ajar. There, on the lawn, were a group of ten of Gog's soldiers, fully armed and gesturing wildly at his house..."Get up Mischi, and get the children down to the cellar. I'll hold them off!"...Mischi gathered the children, two boys and a girl, and rushed them down the ladder into the root cellar, then she closed the trap door but left it unlocked for Thorn...Thorn stood in the living room, facing the barricaded door. Thank god, they only had the one door to guard. Maybe the soldiers would go elsewhere if they couldn't get into his home...Suddenly, Thorn heard pounding on the front door and the soldiers told him to open the door or they would burn the house down around them. Thorn dashed to a window, looked outside, and saw that they did indeed have a torch and cans of gas. Thorn decided he must not let his family be burned to death, so he tore down the barricade and cautiously opened the door. He was promptly shot in the heart and his body thrown to the soldier's fire lizards...Mischi heard the great commotion and the shot, and knew that something terrible had happened to Thorn. Quickly, she climbed the ladder and slid the bolt lock closed. Now, in total darkness, she held the children and prayed for their lives. She could hear loud tramping coming from the house, and harsh expletives as they were seeking and searching her home for her whereabouts...Then, Mischi heard footsteps right above her, and loud orders for her to come out of the cellar if she valued her family's lives..."No," Mischi screamed, "I will never come out; do as you will!"..."You leave me no recourse. Prepare to die."...Mischi smelled the gas and heard it dripping from around the edges of the trap door. Suddenly, there was light as fire danced around the trap door. Mischi pulled her children back into the farthest reaches of the cellar-about ten feet deep. She knew that the fire would consume the small amount of air in the cellar, and they would soon suffocate...There was a big crash and an axe head could be seen coming through the boards of the trap door. It splintered into a thousand pieces, and rough hands tore the splintered boards away...A huge Selve soldier came tromping down the ladder. His squinty eyes soon discovered the cowering Mischi and her children. He strode over and grabbed Mischi by her hair and threw her on the ground. With the tip of his sword he ripped her nightdress from her body, then pulled out his penis and fell on Mischi, raping her and stabbing her at the same time. In rage and lust he thrust at Mischi until she lay dead underneath him...Sated, the soldier called for help, and rounded up the children who were terrified and in shock from what they had just witnessed...The soldiers dragged the children outside where there was a long line of Voun men, women, and children all chained together at the waist. The soldiers added the three children to the people-chain, and led the group away into the darkness. The rest of the soldiers set fire to Thorn's and Mischi's house and garden, and then marched on to the next house in the village...to be continued tomorrow.