Tuesday, July 3, 2012

THE WISH IN YOUR SOUL

How is one to find his true place in life? Is there any means whereby you may discover what it really is that God wishes you to do? The answer is divinely simple-already from time to time, God Himself has whispered into your heart just that very wonderful thing, nothing less than what is called your heart's desire. The most secret wish that lies at the bottom of your heart, that is just the very thing that God is wishing you to do or to be for Him.  And the birth of that wish in your soul was the voice of God Himself telling you to arise and come up higher because He had need of you.  (Emmet Fox)

THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter 37...                                                                                
David filed for guardianship of the three younger children and was given it without any problem. He and Alex had never contemplated raising any children at all, had never wanted children, but now they stood up and became the best parents you would ever want to find. For my part, I watched William on the weekends for David while he and Alex worked. Walter watched Warren on the weekends, and Skeet and Lindsay had Sierra visit them on the weekends. Sometimes all three children would stay with Walter so that they didn't lose contact with one another. The children were the best children you could imagine. Even through their incredible sorrow they remained whole and loving and tried their best at school. We were very proud of them.

Losing a child is probably one of the most painful losses in life. It doesn't seem right somehow that your children should pass before you; somehow I wasn't able to comprehend the loss. It seemed impossible that one day you have a daughter as your best friend and the next she doesn't call anymore. There are no shopping trips together, no more long walks, no more talks until midnight, no more sharing  secrets that no one else knew about. No more anything together again. However, there were the children to consider and for them we managed brave faces and went on with our lives. Thank ONE for the children, as attending to them kept us sane.

We had a series of six incidents at my home over the next three months. My cell phone would fly off of the table to my left and actually turn in mid-air and land behind the chair I was sitting in. I took this to mean that Becky was letting me know that she was all right. It was a comfort to all of us. All of the children would see their mother in their sleep encouraging them to be strong and assuring them that she was near to them.

In December of 2008 I was given a real treat; David and his friend Sherrie took me to New York City to meet Anders and spend the day in the city. We had a ball; it even snowed throughout the day. We went to the Metropolitan Museum of Art and to Strawberry Fields in Central Park to honor John Lennon. We went to Rockefeller Center and saw the giant Christmas tree, and we saw Times Square. It was all so wonderful, one of the best days of my life. Of course seeing Anders again was the best part of all.


Tomorrow Ann begins to feel the first signs of being elderly...                                                                                

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