THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell..Chapter 8...
I focused on calling my father. I was oblivios to my body, all there was in me was a drive and a focus to find out who my father was.
The bed gently swayed and the music led me up several levels to a point where all the world was laid out before me and I could see all the people in their daily lives. "Father, Father!" I cried. Then I let my mnd go entirely free and I could hear in the distance a name, Ralph, Ralph, floating up to my ears, and my heart was struck with love; a pure love so intense that my mind fell to its knees in awe.
A soft voice spoke, "Use your powers and put yourself where your father is, and converse with him telepathically; when you are on Earth and you hear a voice in your mind, know that it is someone who is talking to you; that someone has come in answer to your prayers."
So I went to Earth with my mind, and was in the middle of a large kitchen filled with heavenly aromas. There was a tall redhead singing his heart out to his Lord and stirring a vat of soup. I went up to him, he was Ralph Warren and he is my father. I said to him, "father, I am your little girl and I want you to choose me to be your little girl forever."
Ralph turned toward my voice and said, "of course I choose you to be my daugter. What is your name?"
"Ann is the name you call me by. Thank you so much for choosing me. I love you forever."
Ralph's eyes were so filled with love, and then a cloud of sadness came over his face. "Ann, I am married to a woman I love, and we cannot have children. Lucile had a hysterectomy three years ago; she'd suffered with endometriosis for years, and she is devastated that she cannot have children; she wants a little girl so badly."
"Daddy, isn't there some other way I could come to you?"
"Well, Lucile and I have been talking about adoption. You could come to Earth through another mother who has a problem with keeping and raising you, and then she would give you up to us on a permanent basis; that is called adoption."
"Will you wait for me to come to you?"
"I will, but how am I going to know you; how will I know which baby to pick?"
"Daddy you will know me because you will look into my eyes and recognize me."
Ralph went back to his vat of soup and tried to remember the strange "day-dream" he had just had, that had so moved him, "Oh well, it must have been nice; wish I could remember it better."
So my quest is not over yet. There is another element to this story. Ralph is my spiritual father and now I must find a physical father, one that I'll never be able to know; a "sperm donor."
I relaxed my brain once more, and focused on father, dear father, wherever you are!
Then I heard a gentle voice say, "Daniel. Daniel Lee."
My mind went out to be with Daniel, and I was on earth, in Walla Walla, Washington, in a young man's bdroom. He was sitiing on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands. He wore the uniform of the United States Army. He was thinking that he was afraid to go to war and hoped that he remained in Walla Walla, for a long while. There was a girl he had just met at a USO dance the other night, maybe she'd like to go out with him later that night.
"Daniel, Daniel, I am your little girl and I am asking you to choose me to be your daughter."
"What's that! I must be hearing things! Be your father? I'm not ready for kids in my life. Heck, though, I guess it wouldn't hurt to say yes, but mind now, I'm not raising any brats!"
With that said, he scratched his head, thought, I must be going daft, and went back to thinking about the dance tonight.
Well, that stung a bit, but at least he agreed to be my father and if I'm not too wrong, I think the redhead he is interested in tonight, will turn out to be my mother. Her name is Shirley Loretta and she is a married woman, but her husband is overseas in the Army.
Finally I rested and enjoyed the gentle rocking of the bed and the Mozart concerto, and I realized that I had come back into the room. I opened my eyes and Glenna was at the side of the bed with a smile on her face.
"You have gone through kind of a shock with having to choose two sets of parents. Are you satisfied with the results?"
Tomorrow, the conclusion of Chapter 8, the genealogical tree...
I focused on calling my father. I was oblivios to my body, all there was in me was a drive and a focus to find out who my father was.
The bed gently swayed and the music led me up several levels to a point where all the world was laid out before me and I could see all the people in their daily lives. "Father, Father!" I cried. Then I let my mnd go entirely free and I could hear in the distance a name, Ralph, Ralph, floating up to my ears, and my heart was struck with love; a pure love so intense that my mind fell to its knees in awe.
A soft voice spoke, "Use your powers and put yourself where your father is, and converse with him telepathically; when you are on Earth and you hear a voice in your mind, know that it is someone who is talking to you; that someone has come in answer to your prayers."
So I went to Earth with my mind, and was in the middle of a large kitchen filled with heavenly aromas. There was a tall redhead singing his heart out to his Lord and stirring a vat of soup. I went up to him, he was Ralph Warren and he is my father. I said to him, "father, I am your little girl and I want you to choose me to be your little girl forever."
Ralph turned toward my voice and said, "of course I choose you to be my daugter. What is your name?"
"Ann is the name you call me by. Thank you so much for choosing me. I love you forever."
Ralph's eyes were so filled with love, and then a cloud of sadness came over his face. "Ann, I am married to a woman I love, and we cannot have children. Lucile had a hysterectomy three years ago; she'd suffered with endometriosis for years, and she is devastated that she cannot have children; she wants a little girl so badly."
"Daddy, isn't there some other way I could come to you?"
"Well, Lucile and I have been talking about adoption. You could come to Earth through another mother who has a problem with keeping and raising you, and then she would give you up to us on a permanent basis; that is called adoption."
"Will you wait for me to come to you?"
"I will, but how am I going to know you; how will I know which baby to pick?"
"Daddy you will know me because you will look into my eyes and recognize me."
Ralph went back to his vat of soup and tried to remember the strange "day-dream" he had just had, that had so moved him, "Oh well, it must have been nice; wish I could remember it better."
So my quest is not over yet. There is another element to this story. Ralph is my spiritual father and now I must find a physical father, one that I'll never be able to know; a "sperm donor."
I relaxed my brain once more, and focused on father, dear father, wherever you are!
Then I heard a gentle voice say, "Daniel. Daniel Lee."
My mind went out to be with Daniel, and I was on earth, in Walla Walla, Washington, in a young man's bdroom. He was sitiing on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands. He wore the uniform of the United States Army. He was thinking that he was afraid to go to war and hoped that he remained in Walla Walla, for a long while. There was a girl he had just met at a USO dance the other night, maybe she'd like to go out with him later that night.
"Daniel, Daniel, I am your little girl and I am asking you to choose me to be your daughter."
"What's that! I must be hearing things! Be your father? I'm not ready for kids in my life. Heck, though, I guess it wouldn't hurt to say yes, but mind now, I'm not raising any brats!"
With that said, he scratched his head, thought, I must be going daft, and went back to thinking about the dance tonight.
Well, that stung a bit, but at least he agreed to be my father and if I'm not too wrong, I think the redhead he is interested in tonight, will turn out to be my mother. Her name is Shirley Loretta and she is a married woman, but her husband is overseas in the Army.
Finally I rested and enjoyed the gentle rocking of the bed and the Mozart concerto, and I realized that I had come back into the room. I opened my eyes and Glenna was at the side of the bed with a smile on her face.
"You have gone through kind of a shock with having to choose two sets of parents. Are you satisfied with the results?"
Tomorrow, the conclusion of Chapter 8, the genealogical tree...
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