Today Ann is finally reunited with Ed and talks frankly of their relationship.
THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapters 32 & 33...HELL
However, it turned out that Herb was unable to care for himself totally and that Ed always read through his hospital papers to make sure that he knew how much of each medication to give Herb daily. So when Herb got settled back home, Ed went through his papers and found the letter addressed to him.
About a week later the doctors decided that I was all right to go home again. I had been stabilized on medications. I had only been home a day when the phone rang and it was Ed for me. He asked me to come over to his apartment and visit with him and I said "sure!"
Ed had fared badly since we had seen each other last. He had had to go back into the hospital so he had come to San Diego from Bishop. When he got out of the hospital he had no place to live, so Herb-whom he had met at the hospital and who was also Dr. Laurence's patient-asked him to come and live with him and Ed accepted gladly. It was a nice apartment complex but the apartment that Herb had, had never been cleaned by Herb or his last roommate and there was trash and garbage three feet high all over the apartment. Ed plowed right in to the job of cleaning the apartment and he did a wonderful job, when I came to visit it was really lovely inside. It was a large two-bedroom apartment with two baths and a huge living room.
When I saw Ed for the first time again my heart flipped over and I knew that for the first time in my life I was truly, deeply, in love. It hit me so hard that I spent weeks praying to make sure that this was ONE's plan for my life. I was so happy that I could not keep from grinning. I, of course, did not let Ed know what was happening inside of me. It turned out that Ed was as excited as I was at being together again and we talked for hours and then made plans to be together again as soon as possible.
When I left for home that night, Ed took me in his arms and gave me the sweetest kiss I had ever known; I was shaking from head to toe afterwards. It turned out that that was the only kiss that Ed ever gave me until years later, but it sure was a wonderful kiss to keep in your memory.
CHAPTER 33...
Ed was a very handsome man. He was six feet tall and very slender, although I managed to put quite a bit of weight on him over the years. He had dark auburn/medium brown hair that was very long-below his shoulders-and a well-trimmed mustache and beard. His eyes were hazel green and could go from clear emerald green, with flashes of brown and gold, to a cloudy opal green when he got mad.
Ed had rapid-cycling Bi-Polar Disorder. He could go from a deep depression to a laughing mood several times a day. This did not happen often. Many days he would sleep for 22 hours and wake only to drink a soda and use the restroom. Sometimes he would hibernate for three or four days in a row. These times I knew to spend in my own area and used such days to visit with Debby and the children, but most days Ed and I would spend 12 to 24 hours just talking and listening to music.
I love Ed for so many reasons. He always showed me the greatest respect for my ideas and projects. When I would start to talk to him, he would immediately turn off the television or CD player and give me his total attention. He trusted me with his forecasting program for S&P 100 Index Options trading. He enabled me to grow and develop spiritually by teaching me great truths and ideas. He opened up the world of music to me: Neil Young; CSN; Paul Simon; Brian Wilson; Moody Blues; George Harrison; Tom Petty; Bob Dylan; Woodie and Arlo Guthrie; Mozart; Beethoven; and so many other wonderful composers and performers that it would take all day to write. Most of these composers I had never heard of before and I was just stunned at the amount and quality of the music that had never crossed my path before. This music turned my entire spirit around and opened up a whole new world that grows every single day of my life. He taught me about ONE and that each of us is part of a whole. He taught me to be my brother's keeper and he reminded me that Jesus said that the greatest commandment of all is to love one another as he has loved us. He taught me to care passionately about the hungry and dispossessed; the goal of L.A.M.B. International was to feed the hungry.
Our relationship was celibate for many reasons. The most important reason is because we didn't believe in having sex before marriage. (In my case that reflected my true beliefs despite some of my actions in life.)
This is the way of my love: he was extremely handsome, intelligent, and charismatic. Wherever we went women were drawn to him, but I was never jealous because he had a pure mind. He still loved his first love, his ex-wife Linda, and he was true to her all of his life. He told me that he was emotionally unavailable however he was certainly emotionally involved in our relationship and was a little angry that he was.
Stories Ed told, many times, of the women who had entered his life. They were very interesting stories indeed. Ed could talk. The man could talk nonstop for hours, but he was always interesting. There were always fresh insights and new revelations.
Tomorrow the saga of Ed continues with a search for knowledge and slot machines...
THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapters 32 & 33...HELL
However, it turned out that Herb was unable to care for himself totally and that Ed always read through his hospital papers to make sure that he knew how much of each medication to give Herb daily. So when Herb got settled back home, Ed went through his papers and found the letter addressed to him.
About a week later the doctors decided that I was all right to go home again. I had been stabilized on medications. I had only been home a day when the phone rang and it was Ed for me. He asked me to come over to his apartment and visit with him and I said "sure!"
Ed had fared badly since we had seen each other last. He had had to go back into the hospital so he had come to San Diego from Bishop. When he got out of the hospital he had no place to live, so Herb-whom he had met at the hospital and who was also Dr. Laurence's patient-asked him to come and live with him and Ed accepted gladly. It was a nice apartment complex but the apartment that Herb had, had never been cleaned by Herb or his last roommate and there was trash and garbage three feet high all over the apartment. Ed plowed right in to the job of cleaning the apartment and he did a wonderful job, when I came to visit it was really lovely inside. It was a large two-bedroom apartment with two baths and a huge living room.
When I saw Ed for the first time again my heart flipped over and I knew that for the first time in my life I was truly, deeply, in love. It hit me so hard that I spent weeks praying to make sure that this was ONE's plan for my life. I was so happy that I could not keep from grinning. I, of course, did not let Ed know what was happening inside of me. It turned out that Ed was as excited as I was at being together again and we talked for hours and then made plans to be together again as soon as possible.
When I left for home that night, Ed took me in his arms and gave me the sweetest kiss I had ever known; I was shaking from head to toe afterwards. It turned out that that was the only kiss that Ed ever gave me until years later, but it sure was a wonderful kiss to keep in your memory.
CHAPTER 33...
Ed was a very handsome man. He was six feet tall and very slender, although I managed to put quite a bit of weight on him over the years. He had dark auburn/medium brown hair that was very long-below his shoulders-and a well-trimmed mustache and beard. His eyes were hazel green and could go from clear emerald green, with flashes of brown and gold, to a cloudy opal green when he got mad.
Ed had rapid-cycling Bi-Polar Disorder. He could go from a deep depression to a laughing mood several times a day. This did not happen often. Many days he would sleep for 22 hours and wake only to drink a soda and use the restroom. Sometimes he would hibernate for three or four days in a row. These times I knew to spend in my own area and used such days to visit with Debby and the children, but most days Ed and I would spend 12 to 24 hours just talking and listening to music.
I love Ed for so many reasons. He always showed me the greatest respect for my ideas and projects. When I would start to talk to him, he would immediately turn off the television or CD player and give me his total attention. He trusted me with his forecasting program for S&P 100 Index Options trading. He enabled me to grow and develop spiritually by teaching me great truths and ideas. He opened up the world of music to me: Neil Young; CSN; Paul Simon; Brian Wilson; Moody Blues; George Harrison; Tom Petty; Bob Dylan; Woodie and Arlo Guthrie; Mozart; Beethoven; and so many other wonderful composers and performers that it would take all day to write. Most of these composers I had never heard of before and I was just stunned at the amount and quality of the music that had never crossed my path before. This music turned my entire spirit around and opened up a whole new world that grows every single day of my life. He taught me about ONE and that each of us is part of a whole. He taught me to be my brother's keeper and he reminded me that Jesus said that the greatest commandment of all is to love one another as he has loved us. He taught me to care passionately about the hungry and dispossessed; the goal of L.A.M.B. International was to feed the hungry.
Our relationship was celibate for many reasons. The most important reason is because we didn't believe in having sex before marriage. (In my case that reflected my true beliefs despite some of my actions in life.)
This is the way of my love: he was extremely handsome, intelligent, and charismatic. Wherever we went women were drawn to him, but I was never jealous because he had a pure mind. He still loved his first love, his ex-wife Linda, and he was true to her all of his life. He told me that he was emotionally unavailable however he was certainly emotionally involved in our relationship and was a little angry that he was.
Stories Ed told, many times, of the women who had entered his life. They were very interesting stories indeed. Ed could talk. The man could talk nonstop for hours, but he was always interesting. There were always fresh insights and new revelations.
Tomorrow the saga of Ed continues with a search for knowledge and slot machines...
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