I hope that you have a wonderful, relaxing, weekend. Today we spend time with Ann in New Jersey as she settles herself into her new surroundings. Tomorrow, being a day of rest, I will blog only some of my poetry, but continue with Ann's life game on Monday. I pray that all is well with you and your family and friends.
THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter 37
I was so glad to be with Becky and the children; Becky and I developed a close relationship and of course there were all the children to love. Then I found it difficult to watch Becky stumble and fall and get hurt from the over-use of prescription drugs and I found it difficult not to interfere when Becky was treating the children unfairly. We found each other fighting more and more and I began to be very ill both physically and mentally. David set out to find me my own place which was difficult because my income was very low, $650.00 a month. Coming to New Jersey I had lost $300 in S.S.I. money that I was eligible for in California, because the cost of living was cheaper in New Jersey.
Anders reached out to me by sending me brand new music CDs, and his emotional support; we became very close over the years to follow.
I signed up for Jewish Family Services and received a counselor named Jane-Marie. She was a wonderful woman and very concerned for my mental health.
My mental health was definitely unhealthy, and one day I figured to end it all by taking an overdose of my psychiatric medications. I called Jane-Marie for help and then went to sleep. Jane-Marie came and knocked down my bedroom door and then called 911. I was transported to this lovely mental hospital in North Hampton quite a long way from home. I was there for two weeks and met some marvelous people. One young woman, named Julie Ann, became a close friend, really like a daughter. She considered me to be her mother-Mama Ann she called me and we still write, and talk to each other over the phone.
I learned a lot about myself in the hospitalization, which would be my last hospitalization. I came to grips with my loss of Ed and I learned a lot about how the past was affecting me now. I looked those things straight in the eye and found solid ground to walk on.
I had had to stop driving after being in two automobile accidents, over about a two month period, when I had been in Jersey for about a year. It turned out that I had cataracts on both of my eyes and my vision was impaired without my realizing it. I gave the children's other grandmother, Loretta, the car and stopped driving. A few months later I had an operation to remove the cataracts and miracle of miracles I was left with 20/20 vision in both eyes, although I had to wear reading glasses to read or do close work.
Without a car for transportation, I learned the bus routes and went all over the county as I needed to. Of course David took both Becky and I shopping for whatever we needed, but I had to get to doctors by myself and if I wanted to go somewhere else special, like the casinos, I went by bus and jitney. I found the bus rides to be marvelous, you meet new people and hear about their lives and problems and you go home feeling better about your own situation.
Shortly thereafter, David found an apartment for me that was close to where Becky and the grandchildren lived. It was a beautiful little place in a seniors-only complex. It was so peaceful and beautiful in the area that I felt like I had moved to heaven. It was the first time in my life that I had ever lived alone and I loved every moment of it. Now my spirit began to blossom and I felt free for the first time in my life. Because I was happier and less stressed, my mental health improved markedly, and between Becky and I all the fences were mended and we became closer than at any other time in our lives.
Anders sent me the Sedoma Method, which is a method of releasing which sets you totally free of old business in your life and helps you to grow and develop spiritually by realizing who you really are. This helped me more than any other method I had ever tried and I became strong and wrote a book of poetry for my children and grandchildren called, Heartfire 2007.
Tomorrow I will share some of the poetry from Heartfire 2007 with you...
THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter 37
I was so glad to be with Becky and the children; Becky and I developed a close relationship and of course there were all the children to love. Then I found it difficult to watch Becky stumble and fall and get hurt from the over-use of prescription drugs and I found it difficult not to interfere when Becky was treating the children unfairly. We found each other fighting more and more and I began to be very ill both physically and mentally. David set out to find me my own place which was difficult because my income was very low, $650.00 a month. Coming to New Jersey I had lost $300 in S.S.I. money that I was eligible for in California, because the cost of living was cheaper in New Jersey.
Anders reached out to me by sending me brand new music CDs, and his emotional support; we became very close over the years to follow.
I signed up for Jewish Family Services and received a counselor named Jane-Marie. She was a wonderful woman and very concerned for my mental health.
My mental health was definitely unhealthy, and one day I figured to end it all by taking an overdose of my psychiatric medications. I called Jane-Marie for help and then went to sleep. Jane-Marie came and knocked down my bedroom door and then called 911. I was transported to this lovely mental hospital in North Hampton quite a long way from home. I was there for two weeks and met some marvelous people. One young woman, named Julie Ann, became a close friend, really like a daughter. She considered me to be her mother-Mama Ann she called me and we still write, and talk to each other over the phone.
I learned a lot about myself in the hospitalization, which would be my last hospitalization. I came to grips with my loss of Ed and I learned a lot about how the past was affecting me now. I looked those things straight in the eye and found solid ground to walk on.
I had had to stop driving after being in two automobile accidents, over about a two month period, when I had been in Jersey for about a year. It turned out that I had cataracts on both of my eyes and my vision was impaired without my realizing it. I gave the children's other grandmother, Loretta, the car and stopped driving. A few months later I had an operation to remove the cataracts and miracle of miracles I was left with 20/20 vision in both eyes, although I had to wear reading glasses to read or do close work.
Without a car for transportation, I learned the bus routes and went all over the county as I needed to. Of course David took both Becky and I shopping for whatever we needed, but I had to get to doctors by myself and if I wanted to go somewhere else special, like the casinos, I went by bus and jitney. I found the bus rides to be marvelous, you meet new people and hear about their lives and problems and you go home feeling better about your own situation.
Shortly thereafter, David found an apartment for me that was close to where Becky and the grandchildren lived. It was a beautiful little place in a seniors-only complex. It was so peaceful and beautiful in the area that I felt like I had moved to heaven. It was the first time in my life that I had ever lived alone and I loved every moment of it. Now my spirit began to blossom and I felt free for the first time in my life. Because I was happier and less stressed, my mental health improved markedly, and between Becky and I all the fences were mended and we became closer than at any other time in our lives.
Anders sent me the Sedoma Method, which is a method of releasing which sets you totally free of old business in your life and helps you to grow and develop spiritually by realizing who you really are. This helped me more than any other method I had ever tried and I became strong and wrote a book of poetry for my children and grandchildren called, Heartfire 2007.
Tomorrow I will share some of the poetry from Heartfire 2007 with you...
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