Ann continues watching the movie of her last life game and cringes at the mistakes she made.
THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter Forty
As my life continued to go by on the screen, all I could see were mistakes that I had made; things that I had said that were hurtful to other people. I realized that I had not set such a good example in my lifetime for my children and grandchildren. I had not been there for my parents as they aged and needed help. Forunately Debby and Charlie and Skeeta Sr. helped the grandparents out a great deal and I really appreciated that. Jared, though very young, and Janice, helped my daddy out with his legs when they hurt him and I was so proud of them for showing such love to their grandfather.
Despite how I lived my life, ONE blessed me with my relationship with Ed, and brought me much happiness and a great deal of wellness. Then, after Ed had died, ONE brought me back to be with a large part of my family and finally to a wonderful home of my own in New Jersey.
After Becky had also passed away, I looked back on my life game and saw how many sins I had committed over its 80 year spread. There were so many things I could have done better and now, here I am at home and wondering what punishments ONE will have in store for me here. It was at this point, just as I passed from my life game, that the film flickered and went out on the screen in front of us. I was so embarrassed that I did not want to open my eyes and look at anybody in the room around me. I was very sure that I had not won my life game.
CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
I covered my eyes in shame and would not look at my loved ones. Then I heard Paul say, "Ann, I know that all you have been able to see when looking over your life game is the times that you thought that you had committed a sin against ONE and your family. Now we are going to turn off the lights again and re-watch your life game. This time I want you to look for the times that you were loving and giving to other people. Also, realize that you were born into an imperfect situation with other human beings who were also not perfect, and that for everybody it is a struggle to rise above their basic instincts. If it was easy to be kind and loving it would not be such a challenge for you to find your nobler path and grow into a person centered in love."
Then Ed leaned over and patted my arm and told me that he had had to run out of his viewing room because he could not bear to see the harm he had done to people over the years. He asked me gently to take my hands down from over my eyes and reassured me of his great love and understanding.
Glenna said, "Ann, dear, we all love you here and have been in these chairs for our own reviewing of our own life games. All of us come to the end of our first viewing with heavy hearts and the sense that we have failed ONE and all of our family and friends. We fear that we have committed too many sins to win our life games.
"Remember that the way we win our life game is not to be perfect in all things, but to come to the end of our days with the knowledge that we are love and that we are one with ONE. We've won our life game if we love and accept other people unconditionally, and if we realize that ONE is love and that as we are love, we are also one with ONE and everything and everyone in the universe. Please let us show you how you have grown and developed over the years of your last life game, and how love and oneness had been your goal during that life game. And dear, just realize that all of us felt far from our goals as we watched our life games during this meeting. If you had asked any one of us if we had won our life game at this point in watching our life games, we would have said that we had definitely not won."
I took my hands down from my eyes and gave Glenna and Ed a hug. "I'm o.k." I said. "It's all right to continue. I will look at the movie again and I will look for the loving moments this time. Please help me out if I don't catch on right away."
With that said, Paul motioned and the scenes of my birth came into view again.
Tomorrow Ann re-watches the movie of her last life game, only this time she will come from a more positive perspective.
THE GOD GAMES: Heaven & Hell...Chapter Forty
As my life continued to go by on the screen, all I could see were mistakes that I had made; things that I had said that were hurtful to other people. I realized that I had not set such a good example in my lifetime for my children and grandchildren. I had not been there for my parents as they aged and needed help. Forunately Debby and Charlie and Skeeta Sr. helped the grandparents out a great deal and I really appreciated that. Jared, though very young, and Janice, helped my daddy out with his legs when they hurt him and I was so proud of them for showing such love to their grandfather.
Despite how I lived my life, ONE blessed me with my relationship with Ed, and brought me much happiness and a great deal of wellness. Then, after Ed had died, ONE brought me back to be with a large part of my family and finally to a wonderful home of my own in New Jersey.
After Becky had also passed away, I looked back on my life game and saw how many sins I had committed over its 80 year spread. There were so many things I could have done better and now, here I am at home and wondering what punishments ONE will have in store for me here. It was at this point, just as I passed from my life game, that the film flickered and went out on the screen in front of us. I was so embarrassed that I did not want to open my eyes and look at anybody in the room around me. I was very sure that I had not won my life game.
CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
I covered my eyes in shame and would not look at my loved ones. Then I heard Paul say, "Ann, I know that all you have been able to see when looking over your life game is the times that you thought that you had committed a sin against ONE and your family. Now we are going to turn off the lights again and re-watch your life game. This time I want you to look for the times that you were loving and giving to other people. Also, realize that you were born into an imperfect situation with other human beings who were also not perfect, and that for everybody it is a struggle to rise above their basic instincts. If it was easy to be kind and loving it would not be such a challenge for you to find your nobler path and grow into a person centered in love."
Then Ed leaned over and patted my arm and told me that he had had to run out of his viewing room because he could not bear to see the harm he had done to people over the years. He asked me gently to take my hands down from over my eyes and reassured me of his great love and understanding.
Glenna said, "Ann, dear, we all love you here and have been in these chairs for our own reviewing of our own life games. All of us come to the end of our first viewing with heavy hearts and the sense that we have failed ONE and all of our family and friends. We fear that we have committed too many sins to win our life games.
"Remember that the way we win our life game is not to be perfect in all things, but to come to the end of our days with the knowledge that we are love and that we are one with ONE. We've won our life game if we love and accept other people unconditionally, and if we realize that ONE is love and that as we are love, we are also one with ONE and everything and everyone in the universe. Please let us show you how you have grown and developed over the years of your last life game, and how love and oneness had been your goal during that life game. And dear, just realize that all of us felt far from our goals as we watched our life games during this meeting. If you had asked any one of us if we had won our life game at this point in watching our life games, we would have said that we had definitely not won."
I took my hands down from my eyes and gave Glenna and Ed a hug. "I'm o.k." I said. "It's all right to continue. I will look at the movie again and I will look for the loving moments this time. Please help me out if I don't catch on right away."
With that said, Paul motioned and the scenes of my birth came into view again.
Tomorrow Ann re-watches the movie of her last life game, only this time she will come from a more positive perspective.
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